Today I got a call from my dad. He told me to act like this and that as people will think best of me if I did so. I notice that the older I get the more difficult it is for me to suppress this sensational irritating feeling inside me, but no matter what I always end up with saying “Yes dad”
So I have given it some thoughts about how this has effected me as a grown up…
Well… this has most certainly made me think of others before I act on something, like if I do this and that how will it look to other people. So is this a good or bad habit?
For me it has been both a blessing and a curse. A blessing because of a “good” reputation and a curse because “I” comes in second.
If you put yourself in second place long enough you will get frustrated! And I think that the frustrations finally got to me during last year. Living a life based on “what looks best”, is most certainly not fulfilling.
So what if people think that I am not that “great”, “polite”, “successful” or “clever”! What is the worse case of that?